The road less travelled

What does my heart seek I do not know.
Why is there this desire,is not obvious.
But it is there.
And it burns.
Sometimes,the flames rise so high,
that they threaten to burn me down.
And then there is chaos.Unrest!!
I hibernate to let the gusty winds pass.
Am exhausted by the storm within.
Lethargy numbs my limbs and drowns the fire of life within.
What is it that I seek,I do not know.
I look hopefully towards God or Destiny,to show me my road.
I wish the fires die down and I'm spared the agony of these burns.
My body aches with the pain.
Why is there this discontentment?
Why seek utopia?
Why not seek satisfaction within.
Is there something called a soul mate?
Does he even exist?
What does my heart seek?
Do I even know?
If it is not here then where?
If it is not now then when?
If it is not me then who?
I have countless questions,but none answered.
What remains is an agonizing pain within.